Bird Flu – A conversation with my father *cluck*

Setting the scene:

Me….slumped over the kitchen sick washing today’s and all of yesterdays plates, glasses, cutlery etc….

Conversation:

Dad: oooooh…what’s this…biriyani!! Uff…you got the chicken one!!

Me: yeah…Mehreen got it on the way home….bribery for looking after Sophia

Dad: But why chicken

Me: cause we always eat chicken

Dad: but I don’t want to get sick

Me: Hein! You mean its ok for us to eat chicken but you wont?

Dad: Those who are not scared, eat it….I’m scared

Me: WAT!!! You’d let us eat it but you wont??!??!

Dad: Some one has to be left to make funeral arrangements!!!!!!!!

Zehra (name)

Zehra (variants: Zerah, Zahra, Zahrah, Zarah, Zara, Zaara, Zohra, Zohrah, Zora, Zorrah) is a female given name, that might have a Swahili, Arabic, Hebrew, Greek, Slavic or English origin

It means all of the following:

1) a flower, or to blossom
2) radiance, brilliant, bright or fair
3) dawn or bright as the dawn
4) princess
5) the color white

I love ma name......FUCK ALL OF U WHO MISS-PRONOUNCE N SPELL IT WRONG!

Sunday, oh Sunday....

"My darkness prevails in the absence of your light"

Today….i was home…..in ma room….98% of the day…..i ate…read….watched tv….all by ma own. Was meant to paint…but had no emotion…no motivation..no inspiration

Thoughts of you float by once in a while….and I remembered the flowers. All 5 buds have bloomed and….I finally agree…they look beautiful. I wish one day, I too, would bloom.

Ogake, one of ma closest friends from uni, told me today what lilies mean. It was a strange revelation. Roses symbolize love, Chinese bamboo…harmony…but lilies…..when given to one….means….

"I dare you to love me”

And I do dare you…why won’t u submit! Why cant I break you like you’ve broken me.

Strange thing is….ma name Zehra…in some languages….means Flower, and I know how much you love em….so I ask u….Love this flower too.

Anyways……I again have got ‘clicking-diarrhea’. I showered, did ma hair and makeup and took many new strange pictures, strange as in direction, context, subject and of course the unusual use of blurriness.

Ratty got another chance to pose…hehe…I simply adore him…he is..ma savior when the nites are cold and ma heart is alone. He had the right amount of ‘squeeze’ in him! He tried a strawberry today!! :)

And I read the “Readers Digest”. The cover states “Love Struck”….I think they made a Typo……it should be “LOVE STINKS”

I stopped at the following article….need to read that one tonite…I need to make $$$$$ and get ma own place…move out…live ma own life!!


Stuffed maself with a whole bowlful of fruit. I’m very particular, I hate being interrupted while I eat so I cleaned, deseeded 3 oranges, sliced an apple and tossed in a few strawberries. One word….YUM!

And that was that.....just a fruity-lonely day......in my room....wid Me, Myself and I

Stolen Car (we should be dancing)

OHMIGOD!!!

I have been searchin 4 this song 4 like a few weeks now...finally got it! YEAH BABY!!!

Its a old song of 'Sting' which he has redone wid 'Will I Am'. i just luveeeee it!!! Smacking video as well!!!

"Please take me dancing tonight I've been all on my own
You promised one day we could its, what you said on the phone
I'm just a prisoner of love always hid form the light
Take me dancing, please take me dancing tonight"


This isn't the version i like....its widout Will I Am....but the ones wid him...utube has no embedded code :(




The one i like is : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p_cE4dnzLXs

Photographs

Yeah...i know....its been quite a few days that i havn't updated ma blog....believe me...i have sooooo much to write about.....and i will....hopefully tomorrow i will have typing-diarrhea...lols

I been posting pics online as well..need to add more.....i have clickin-diarrhea currently....been takin wayyy tooo many pics.....of MOI! lols....yeah...self obsessed 4 the moment!

Ma life in pics.....

http://www.flickr.com/photos/zehra_khan/

Horoscope

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My horoscope today said that my “spirit is endless”…I would like to believe so.
On second reading…oh gosh….FISHSTICKS!!!

“Your humor takes you to a new direction and achieves strong results”

Yes. I have made a new friend recently…and he scares me!! Why…because it’s like I’m talking to me!!! And if that is even 50% so…then…I’m happy because….that means I’m kewl!! Meaning he’s kewl!! Only reason 4 ma uncontrollable joking and laughing these last few days….and for those who know me really well…..know that I don’t often laugh….let alone smile…I mean….there are sooo many times when I’m joking wid ma friends….we’re web camming…..I’m writing “LOL” and ma face…looks like I’m bout to cry….lols…..(yes…I did just type that widout even a slight up turn of the lip)

“You could be rethinking a decision that involves finances and partnerships,”

DAMM RIGHT I AM!! I am gonna RE-Resign! I cant even take a day off from work widout ppl sayin shit n me stressing bout what’s being done etc. I’m only stayin 4 the monthly income so that I don’t have to depend on ma fmily. But if I leave work…there are sooo many thing I can accomplish this year. Learn German…finish ma driving lessons…finish the number of painting wanna exhibit InshAllah in the next few months. LOSE WEIGHT!!!! Lolsss…….(yes…still no flicker of the lips)

Partnerships…hmm…..well…if its of the personal kind….yes…I have been doin a lot of rethinking. I need something wid a positive outcome. I’m not a child anymore, I need to cut out all the negativity.

“So much confusion! Sort through facts”

Yes I am confused. Zehra….he is not yours….step away from the desire…take many many steps back. Let go…and BREATHE!!! Inhale…exhale….exhale all of him OUT! I need to get him out from under my skin…Get him out from deep within

“Tonight: Remember what is fun in life”

Fun….fun….FUN??...wats fun? Its been too long….I think me forgot!
Definition of FUN…A source of enjoyment, amusement, or pleasure.
LETS GO LOOK FOR SOME FUN!


All in all…..its been a weird few months…need to rectify MANY things.
Need to ERASE many things

Aretha Franklin » I Never Loved A Man (The Way I Love You)

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The name says it all.....

"And I don't know why
I let you do these things to me"


I liked the oldest version best....true raw form...Unadulterated