I’ve been a little down with life recently.....suddenly I felt as if I wasn’t so strong any more...and I’m extremely lonely...Where have all the good men gone…I have yet to meet one btw…the one who’d make me his…My effin luck that the ones I fall for r either retards…or….taken…
I’ve been trying to put this brave face on, coming back to Pakistan, turning ma back to ma painful (physical and mental) past... being aggressive wid ma life focusing on work n only work....its all well n good...but its not me...well…Yes it is me…I am a self confessed workaholic…and this last 1 year I’ve been grinding myself to the bone…I’ve hardly had time for friends….for a life…for myself…
The real me is the hopeless romantic wid endless love n hugs to give.....
Me is the hyper one dancing in da middle of the night to wicked music….yes…at times I do dance with ma maniquin!!
Me is the one who chills late night wid close friends n freshly baked Chocó fudge brownies…well…used to during ma last year at Uni....
Me is the one wid the absurd makeup! Yes….I DO have the balls to go out looking like a freak at times...lols...
Me is the one who takes long walks at any time of the day/night…finding a place to sit n think…miss finding that empty spot on a swing in that empty park on a cold lonely night
Me is the one who giggles uncontrollably with friends...getting ready 4 a night out.
Me is the one who de-stresses by cooking 4 course meals...baking pies, cakes and god knows what else I can think up of…ppl I care about have often blamed me 4 making them fat….and if u haven’t been privileged to enjoy my culinary skills and put on the calories…I apologize…its not that I don’t care or haven’t made the time or effort…its just that I haven’t had the chance to…
Me is the one who loves to paint…yes…most of ma nudes r adaptations of me….so yes…I do have a strange collection of pics…. ;P no I WILL NOT show u those…lols!
Me is the one I’m not anymore...
I cant wait till ma next small break...I wish it would come sooner...I wish I was traveling more...I wish I could see the faces I haven’t seen in yrs....I wish…ma friends across the world…weren’t so far apart....but no matter what...they'll always b in ma heart...and one day...we shall all meet once again.....
I hope that where ever I may b....and if u're there......we can meet...and I can b me again.....Love u and thank u all who have made an impact 4 being in ma life.....especially those who have helped me learn to love myself…
About Me
- MurZeh
- Murad Hassan and Zehra Khan are MurZeh. We both work individually and collaboratively, and by merging our talents we can provide quality photographs to suit all kinds of photographs. Murad is located in Islamabad, whereas Zehra is located in Karachi. Our services include Image production Need an image for a corporate event? Modeling portfolio? Album cover? Birthday party? Events We cover events such as openings, award shows, launches and weddings. (coverage of parties will be to our discretion) Art Director Using your ideas to help turn them into reality. Retouching/ Post production With over 4 years experience creating and manipulating images at a semi-professional capacity, We can help you make your good images into amazing images.
3 comments:
Its awful being lonely and being ignored. I should know. But Zebbie, think about all the peoples whose hearts and souls you have touched. You are such a giving and loving person who deserves the best, not the crap you have been dished out. Okay the crap ones were prolly there as a sign that dont give up. You have to wade through a lot of crap to get to your destination. And believe me, you will get there.
only from darkness can light be seen...
nice writing Z... hope in the darkness you find something worthwhile.
hey gorgeous!!dont be too hard on yourslef, life is a bitch, but dont stop you from living and loving the people that appreciate your love!but stay away from the dirty bastards that ever try to make u feel less than you are. and like uv sed urslef about stop steering and ul find your way? its so true, you have all the answers, you just need to belive in them?i miss you woman, come back to UK, we'll have fun!
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